down in the hole

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it's hard to know what to post this week.  after all, the last project i finished was eating off the same plate, with the same fork and spoon and cup, for the whole of it.  this worked out but the day-to-day doesn't lend itself to written extrapolation. 

last week i did nothing.  call it exhaustion, embracing the moment, preoccupation with the unfinished - i just couldn't commit to anything.  more than that, even, i don't feel like i need to keep myself busy in order to stay sane.  i'm whole as i am now.  that's very liberating.

what's left to do, anyway?

1. pies

2. culinary boot camp

3. veganizing my life (harder than you'd expect, but not impossible)

4. sharing some writing (ugh)

i'm going to ditch that farmer's market project since i haven't been able to make more time during weekdays.  it's pretty inconvenient to work a 9 - 5 if you ignore the "making money" part. 

at work and outside of it there's been definite growth under the surface, so much so that i didn't notice it happening until now, when we're coming down to the acceptance part and when there are no more versions of the truth to spin. i like to think that i'm not afraid of the truth, but i'm not perfect either.

it's boiling down to this:  i don't always have the energy or the passion to bang a project out every week.  last summer, when i started all of this up, i really needed something to keep me on track and people to hold me accountable. 

over the last two months i've watched the blog hits dip down to nothing, and that's okay.  i'm not marketing this at all - the posts are more for me than anyone else.  the weekly posting is hard to maintain, so our next incarnation is likely to be more sporadic but focused on the hobbies that really matter to me.  truth accepted.

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this week and next: dabbling in culinary techniques (knife cuts, cake baking, cooking vegetables properly, making a stock) and making some pie.
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